Catch up Time and a change in the Plans

It's been such a long time since I have written. Almost a year in fact. So much has happened, and I have grown so much as a person. All of it good too.
I have not left California, in fact I will probably be here a little while longer. I have a stable job, with a descent income and I am living on my own and I have someone who views life like I do, and I am crazy about him.
I don't know where to start. I got a place of my own less then a month ago and I have been just figuring out what I like to do. All the free time with my self is so nice and relaxing. I feel like I can just breath again.
Although I can't say everything is wonderful, but I can't complain. My troubles are only minor comparatively to others problems.
I still work full time and would love to have a garden. Right now all I have is a small chocolate mint plant that I bought at Trader Joes, and it is trying to stay alive. I need to buy some potting soil and a new pot for it this weekend so I can keep it alive and going. I can tell that it it a survivor like me.
I have this cute bacholor apartment, no kitchen, which is kinda a bummer, but it has sooooo much storage space and it is a very nice size, so I just need a refridgerator and a microwave, I would actually like a toaster oven, but I will take what I can get. And I will be a lot better off food and eating wise. Thankfully my boyfriend lives across the street so I can use his kitchen when needed.
It's funny I forgot about this thing and just thought of it the other day and was able to find it. After reading my few post I think I will pick up where I left off.
So look for some new post soon...I may not be as exciting as a Julia and Julie blog, but you never know!

One thing is for sure...

Each day I start to feel a little better about what has happened in the last few months. I slowly begin to feel like I know what I would like to do.
1. I want to and plan to be in Washington by this time next year.
That much I do know. As for the rest I am thinking about going back to school. I don't know what for and I don't know how I will do it. I just know that I think going back to school would be a good start in the right direction. I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore. I want to have a small little farm, have a family. But to have a family I need to have someone who I would like to spend the rest of my life with, and I don't have that right now. Although I do know that I won't find that person living in the city. I'm ready to leave this place and go somewhere were the sky is blue, the air is fresh, there are water falls, and people are friendly and not too busy talking on the phone.
So the next two things I need to figure out is what I want to go back to school for and where in Washington do I want to live.
Research is going to need to be done. I will go and work on that next!

Decisions

I need out of this place. No matter how I look at it. I don't think of it as running away, I'm just done with this part of my life. I'm excited to start a new adventure. I'm really looking to move to Washington. I don't know where yet, but somewhere to the western part of Washington. I have been talking to people who I know know the area, and trying to do some research as to where I would be happiest. I feel like there is nothing more for me. I feel incomplete if that is at all possible to describe. I'm thinking about finding some where near some of the schools and then going back to school. I know that won't be easy, but I think I need to do something new with my life. I don't know what though. I am planning on figuring something out and taking if from there. In the mean time I will be stuck in the city trying to put my life in order so that I can find the true me.
Life in the city is getting long. We changed to Day Light Savings and it feels so late, bu it's not as late as I though it was. I feel like I am always at work and I am. Customers come in and say, "your still here?" Yeah, it's called being a manager and making sure things are running correctly. How do I relax, well on the drive home I blast either Rascal Flatts, or Kenny and just sing at the top of my lungs with the windows down. I don't care. I can either sing or yell at people all day long. I figured this is just better!
I've been getting on Mary Jane's website more. I'm playing around with fishing ideas. I really want to go fishing with Valerie but we have learned that we don't know as much as we though we had. Granted I haven't been in years, and dad or my uncles always helped out. So I am on the quest in finding a good fishing resource so that I have a good place to start. See if I lived somewhere where people were friendlier I could go and have someone give me some pointers. =(
It's depressing some days. I'm frustrated with so much and have so much inside me that I just can't always get it out. Ok, my dinner is ready. It's chicken pot pie night!

Pig Tail Kind of Day

There are some days when I choose to wear pig tails. Why is that? I think it is because working on such a customer base, it makes them really stop and look to see if there are really talking to someone with pig tails. My hair is getting long enough, it is nice. I braid my pig tails and I am good to go. Most people actually smile. I swear, when the days seem long and people seem more uninviting I put the pig tails on. So when I say "Hi! How are you?" They actually stop and think I am real! It's crazy. Yesterday I had one d-bag after another and they were rude and un-thankful. I literally held the door open for a man and he grabbed the door and held it for himself so he didn't have to say thank-you. These people who are on the phone and too busy to actually talk to the person who is in front of them taking their amex card and running it through. Wouldn't you want to make conversation with them. Or are you too busy making appointments for your next photo shoot and spa date. Don't get me wrong. I have participated in both myself, but I have always taken the time to talk to the person in front of me to make sure that they know I appreciate their hard work. Cuz without them I wouldn't be getting food, gas, clothes, toilet paper. Back to Pig Tails, anyways. I find that people really like them. It takes them back to a happier time. And how many grown women in the city do you see wearing pig tails?

Introduction

I've never had a blog before but I thought it would be fun. I am currently living in Los Angeles, in which I hope to be able to leave very soon. I have been out here for over 8 years now and I am ready to start a new chapter in my life. I want to be able to have a garden, some animals, and not all the traffic, noise, pollution and everything else that comes with the city.
I moved out here 8 years ago to get a degree in Fashion and Film and TV Costume Design. Well I got my degree but no job in the career that I have choosen. Do I want to work in that industry right now, no. I don't have the personality it takes to do it. I have tried and have done what I could, but it wasn't me and I just couldn't do it.
So here I am, working as a manager at a chain company. I'm dealing with the economic down fall the best that I possibly can. Glad I have a job, but don't like the stress I have to deal with. I feel my body almost fall apart some days. Some days I just wish I could just go outside and deal with bugs, weeds, dirt and feed the animals. I know it's not an easy lifestyle, but neither is what I am doing right now. I crave a change in life. I think that is the change I would like to have! I've been talking and dreaming about it for a while now.
But until I have a farm to go to, I am here in the city. Working on making my dream come true! All these details of a dream, tend to stand in the way, but I am willing to work those out. So I thought it would be fun to write down my journey. Plus I have had so much weird and crazy things happen to me that I thought it would be fun to actually document them.
Please excuss any spelling error and improper English usage. I am not an English Major, and I do have a problems with putting my thought to words!
Farm Girl Hugs!