One thing is for sure...

Each day I start to feel a little better about what has happened in the last few months. I slowly begin to feel like I know what I would like to do.
1. I want to and plan to be in Washington by this time next year.
That much I do know. As for the rest I am thinking about going back to school. I don't know what for and I don't know how I will do it. I just know that I think going back to school would be a good start in the right direction. I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore. I want to have a small little farm, have a family. But to have a family I need to have someone who I would like to spend the rest of my life with, and I don't have that right now. Although I do know that I won't find that person living in the city. I'm ready to leave this place and go somewhere were the sky is blue, the air is fresh, there are water falls, and people are friendly and not too busy talking on the phone.
So the next two things I need to figure out is what I want to go back to school for and where in Washington do I want to live.
Research is going to need to be done. I will go and work on that next!

Decisions

I need out of this place. No matter how I look at it. I don't think of it as running away, I'm just done with this part of my life. I'm excited to start a new adventure. I'm really looking to move to Washington. I don't know where yet, but somewhere to the western part of Washington. I have been talking to people who I know know the area, and trying to do some research as to where I would be happiest. I feel like there is nothing more for me. I feel incomplete if that is at all possible to describe. I'm thinking about finding some where near some of the schools and then going back to school. I know that won't be easy, but I think I need to do something new with my life. I don't know what though. I am planning on figuring something out and taking if from there. In the mean time I will be stuck in the city trying to put my life in order so that I can find the true me.
Life in the city is getting long. We changed to Day Light Savings and it feels so late, bu it's not as late as I though it was. I feel like I am always at work and I am. Customers come in and say, "your still here?" Yeah, it's called being a manager and making sure things are running correctly. How do I relax, well on the drive home I blast either Rascal Flatts, or Kenny and just sing at the top of my lungs with the windows down. I don't care. I can either sing or yell at people all day long. I figured this is just better!
I've been getting on Mary Jane's website more. I'm playing around with fishing ideas. I really want to go fishing with Valerie but we have learned that we don't know as much as we though we had. Granted I haven't been in years, and dad or my uncles always helped out. So I am on the quest in finding a good fishing resource so that I have a good place to start. See if I lived somewhere where people were friendlier I could go and have someone give me some pointers. =(
It's depressing some days. I'm frustrated with so much and have so much inside me that I just can't always get it out. Ok, my dinner is ready. It's chicken pot pie night!